Monday, October 19, 2009
back to blogging..
i dont know what to say...
i dont know what to do..
just feeling very depress over this new vocation i got...
it sucks..
it really sucks...
my life now is like so meaningless when i come to think of it...
someone in camp asked me a question during an activity..
"so what do you like to do most when you get out of camp?"
and that kept me thinking for days...
even till now..
i have no answer to that anymore...
i aint like myself anymore..
i dont smile that much..
i dont do anything anymore..
there's like nothing around that interest me anymore...
i'm just a living zombie,
living in my own world..
if not for my darling...
if not for my family..
i would have already chosen to leave this world..
this world of terror..
thinking of booking in back to camp..
it's a terror nightmare to me..
i dont know why..
i never had this kinda feeling before...
all thanks to my darling and family that supported me till now..
i've lived on..
thanks for all this while...
iloveyoumydarlinggirl..
thanks for this wonderful weekend...
i simply enjoyed it...
gonna go back in camp in like 3 1/2hours..
cya all in 2weeks time i guess..
i simply dont like my life now..
happy 2yrs 7months in advance my dear..
darling..
sorry i cant pei you like i used to anymore..
take care and jia for for your last sem okie..
i know you can do it de..
sorry i cant be there for you at times physically...
just wanna let you know..
that i love you always..
happy 2yrs 7months in advance..
mummy..
take care mummy..
sorry for making so much trouble for you..
cya in 2weeks time okay..
sorry i cant be home..
till then..
i dont know how much longer..
can i hold..
right at the edge of a cliff..
falling any time..
never felt this bad ever..
i'm just getting tired..
myfairytales
3:49 PM
